I MOVE OUT OF MY APARTMENT TOMORROW!!
*overwhelmed is an understatement… I will let you guys know how it goes!! Prayers are appreciated and welcomed as we try to navigate the worlds heaviest couch, futon, bed down a twisted flight of stairs. Can’t. Wait.
I did a light/easy pilates workout at the gym which was honestly more of a morning filler than anything else ha…
Yesterday my legs were in need of a slow “shake-out” run after the duathlon type workout I did on Sunday– 12 mile run (full of bathroom stops) and later a 25 mile bike ride! Whew!
So Monday we had runners over to our house for an easy 5.2 miles at 7.50 pace, followed by burgers, chips, veggies, beer, and lots and lots of cookies and brownies!!
It was a great run and I got to catch up with my friend Kelly who ran as a top runner for Purdue University!! She is amazing!!!! It was so great to catch up with her and hear about her wedding details for next year!!
On to sports bra running business!
I used to run in my sports bra everyday in the summer. Didn’t give it a second thought. That has definitely changed as I became more restricted in my eating and had all thoughts consumed with food/fitness/workouts.
I want to get back to that point–the point where I didn’t care what people thought… didn’t care what I looked like… I was hot, so I took off my shirt. End of story.
With the “food” aspect of my health kicked in and moving right along… I am beginning to work on regaining the confident demeanor that I once so proudly held. I want the Andrea back that would be loud at parties, make outrageous suggestions for things to do, go out and stay out, wear clothes for the reason that I loved them and not based entirely on how I looked in them. I want to run in a sports bra and not be so self-conscious that I look fat/skinny/un-athletic/un-toned/flabby/weak/etc. I told my dad that I miss not giving a second thought to whipping off my shirt… and he reminded me that I cannot let that voice in my head win. He said he raised me as a confident, strong, beautiful women on the inside and out. He said if I feel like taking off my shirt while running… then go ahead and take it off. Don’t let “it” win.
He is right!! I am determined to take off my shirt next time it is really hot out as a way of “proving” to myself and “the evil negative body image” voice that I LOVE ME FOR ME AND THINK I AM AWESOME NO MATTER WHAT I LOOK LIKE!!!
Have a great Tuesday!! Please send me strong/muscle vibes for heavy lifting!! 🙂
Do you run with your shirt off? Are you self-conscious?
Tips for moving day? ((I move into my new apt on Saturday!))