No Scales, No Mirrors.
This is how it is going to be for a while.
A few days ago, I asked my mom to hide my scale in my bedroom. I just couldn’t handle it staring me in the face anymore and it would literally shout at me to jump on it and hold my breathe as I watched the number formulate in front of me. No more. My mom (who usually has to be reminded of things 4 or 5 times) heard me the first time. Next time I walked into my room, it was gone. Goodness I love her! Goodbye Scale, Your number no longer determines the happiness of my day.
I mentioned in my previous posts (HERE) that body image is the hardest. Watching my stomach, thighs, hips, get bigger is just terrifying. I have decided that mirrors are just not for me. Obviously I can’t get rid of every mirror I encounter, but I can give myself strict time limits that I spend in front of them. And I can force myself to leave my clothes ON while in front of them. I can decided that I can only stare straight ahead an not turn my body to the side to measure the protrusion of my stomach… Yes, these things I can and will do. Goodbye Mirrors, You no longer own all of my time and worry.
For 4ish days now, I have had no scale and no mirror telling me what to “think” of myself. I am working out, drinking protein drinks and eating bars immediately after lifting and running, I am overall taking in more calories throughout my day… and I am succeeding in this because I am not turning to the scale and praying that the number doesn’t rise or running to the bathroom mirror to see what my stomach looks like. It has been such a relief!!! I just keep moving forward, doing/eating what I know I need, and not what other deceiving factors tell me.
**I am loving this so far! I hope I am able to hang in there… because I think this is a huge step in my treatment and recovery process!!**
Today I plan on a long, slowww run! — I am working on slow running. It seems the consensus the other day was that slow running was the safest and most effect way to go! Sounds good to me! I need some slow-down in my life!
Hope you all have a great Tuesday full of LOVE and LAUGHTER and SILLINESS!!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understand. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.”
Are unhealthy habits you would like to break in your life?
Races?? Any races soon??
–I am running a for-fun 10k on Saturday in Chicago 🙂