Did I mention my sister (aka Best Friend) is in town for a week from NYC?? Bahhh so pumped!!
I officially have “them all”.
In the last 3 weeks, I have now become the patient of a Nutritionist, a Therapist, and a Specialized Doctor. My first thought was, “Oh my gosh this is so expensive!!” My parents of course yelled at me for saying that and promised me there was no better way to spend their money than on getting me help.
Doctor Numero 3
I saw my 3rd and final “teammate”, a Dr. Blythe, yesterday morning. Dr. B specializes in adolescents and young adults with Ed and other food-exercise specific health problems. She was WONDERFUL. I felt so comfortable talking with her and she gave me so much of her time to talk and discuss.
I really like speaking to Dr. B with her incredibly strong and in-depth medical background (duh she is a Doctor of Medicine Andrea). But what I mean, is I love being able to ask the “hard questions” about what exactly my body is going through, how it is/is not reacting to nutrients, food, exercise, etc. I like the Facts.
All 3 of my doctors have made the comment that I am “very much an achiever. You like challenges and you love completing challenges successfully. You are competitive in both athletics, school, and life, and you demand more from yourself than anyone ever would.” Yep. That sounds about right!
Because of this, they said the best way to “appeal” to me with the concept of weight gain to get healthy, I need the education side of it. I need the facts. I need the evidence. I think they are completely right. I want to know that what I am doing (about to do) is going to help and work.
A Rough Rest of the Day
I did no exercise yesterday.
The last thing Dr. B and I decided on was that I was going to take 1 rest day per week where I did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. But…. Yoga and abs and push ups though are okay, right Dr. B? NO.
So I laid by the pool, sat in a lab office for 1.5 hrs to get more blood work done (I live there these days), rode in the car lots, made dinner with my sister (who by the way is visiting from NYC!!), then sat and watched Harry Potter on ABC Family (oh my gosh my favorite!). So lots of sitting and nothingness.
I hated it. Not working out at all…and eating… and being stationary…and eating more… and still being stationary… it was not fun.
I could feel a mental breakdown developing. I shared some things with my mom and sister that took them off guard regarding my Ed and how deep the mental struggle was. I could tell it scared them a bit. I was extremely secluded all day. Very alone in my thoughts… over thinking on everything.
Accepting the Challenge (again)
My dad pulled me out of yesterday’s mental struggle. Good old dad. I don’t know how he does it or by what magic touch (actually I believe Jesus blesses my dad with words and understanding for me) he reaches out to me, but I always leave a conversation feeling better, empowered, and ready to attack.
He put things in perspective. When I told him I was so worried about how this weight gain will look to other people, he told me I would look nothing but Beautiful and Healthy. He reminded me that everything I do in life, I always do to 110%. That is just me. If I commit to something, I throw my whole self into and don’t stop until I reach my goal. It has served me well in many areas, become a problem in others. But my dad said to treat this like the same. I have been presented with a challenge. A training challenge that my Coach has given me to get stronger, more powerful, faster ((i.e. HEALTHIER)). I must take this on and prove I can do it. I must trust my “team” of coaches that they have done this before and know what they are doing.
So I am recommitting myself to this challenge. I can do this!!
Food is Fuel and my body will LOVE to have it and I will be a Beautiful, Happy, Healthy women by the end of this!!
Have a Fantastic Friday everyone and a Great Weekend!! Stay safe and happy 🙂
What are you weekend plans?
Advice on how I can learn to NOT care what others will think about my “new body”?