I gave you all a sneak peak as to what my nutritionist Heather and I discussed on Monday, but I wanted to really give you a full view– for my own sake as much as yours!
I can already tell you that eating yesterday, keeping in mind the goals we came up with and the proposed plans that would be good to follow, went really well! I was very pleased with what I achieved in terms of BALANCE.
I can also tell you that already this morning, at 5:15am, I am not doing so hot in terms of eating balanced. I guess it just goes to show me that this is not going to be some overnight turn around, no matter HOW awesome Heather is!!
Anyways, to the fun stuff–
-I met her ‘after-hours’ at 6:15pm when she had to open the office especially for me. I couldn’t make it to her normal business hours due to work, and I had just decided to schedule an appt for July when I got back from camp, but she really wanted to meet with me. If that isn’t a great start to a meeting (where the ‘teacher’ is extremely dedicated,loyal, and just super accommodating) then I don’t know what is!
-The meeting lasted over 1.5 hrs. it was so kind of her to stay to almost 8pm with me! Again, it is the little things, like seeing how much she cared for me, that can make the difference between a good fit and a great one.
–I first started with my entire ‘food’ background. (I will be adding a new Food Story Page soon for everyone to be able to read about it!) Start to finish, held nothing back. I was not ashamed to tell her anything. Even my lowest of lows… even admitting that I had been super depressed… telling her what my lowest weight was… telling her the physical difference I saw (such as hair loss, freezing hands/feet, loss of sleep, dull skin tone, etc)… everything was laid out on the table. I wanted her to get the total picture.
And just like the professional champ she was, she took it all in stride, with no judging, but just thoughtful nods and intelligent clarifying questions.
-Then she asked me the most important Question and point of me picking up the phone and calling her–“What do you want out of this? Why did you call me? What do you hope to gain?”
She needed this answered in order to see if I was really ready to take this on. I totally was! I said something along the lines of, “I want to be unafraid of food. I want to be someone who can eat balanced meals. I want to have normal dishes and servings of food. I want to be Healthy in my body. I want to enjoy life again! I want to no be thinking of food 24/7!!!“
-Knowing that I was getting ready to leave for Michigan to work at at a camp for 4 weeks, I told her I was nervous since I would have 0 control over meals. It is all family style dining and you eat what you are given. Or else you don’t need. No way around that! So we immediately sat down and came up with meals that are common to camps and how I can eat in order to hit her Main 3; Dairy, Protein, Starch (we decided that me getting enough veggies/fruits is most definitely NOT a problem… so my job is to focused instead on these 3 food groups where I struggle to incorporate them into meals.)
–She let me design my menu, with suggestions and ‘nudges’ along the way.
-We decided that since I get up so so early, breakfast is usually where I struggle the most to get a Balance/Normal meal in. I drag it out over 5 hours and am just constantly CONSTANTLY eating…whether it is 8 apples, half a bag of pretzles followed by half a bag of animal crackers… whatever it is, we decided that we need to learn to make breakfast look like a true meal. So we decided on making 2 breakfasts– Brilliant, right?! Here is an example of my ‘plan’ Andrea’s meal plan 6-3-13
–Then we came up with some Goals. Some are for right now, others are for down the road… these will change and evolve as I move along the recovery process. But for now, we just had 5 (And that is plenty!! Heather reminded me that these do not all have to be reached tomorrow!)
- See doctor for blood test and bone density test (schedule for early July) (this is to see if any extreme damage had been done in the last 2 years and help her decided which nutrients I am lacking, etc)
- Pause after eating – enjoy a balanced meal and then wait 20 minutes before evaluating physical hunger
- Fruit – one serving per meal or snack (no more 8 apples for breakfast…)
- Enjoy three meals per day plus at least one substantial snack per day
- Call Laura and Jackie and see who I like/who I am comfortable with (Laura and Jackie are her 2 recommended therapist).
-Yesterday I got a blood test done! And I also was able to eat normal/regular/balanced meals for most of the day, and only 3 apples throughout the WHOLE day!
–I need to stay on the Hunger Scale between a 3 and 7. — 3 meaning “I am hungry and ready to eat” and 7 meaning “I am satisfied and no longer hungry”. Above and below those numbers are where I need to avoid. So no letting myself get starving and no letting myself eat until I am so uncomfortable and sick.
Ok THAT will take a lot more practice….
This is already a SUPER long post, and if you stayed with me the whole time, Thanks! And even if not, Thanks Anyways!! Writing stuff down always helps! But there was much more that we discussed… more emotionally how I was doing… and that is going to have to be in another post! –But she did let me know, as you all do everyday, that I am not alone and this is far far too common. I should not be ashamed or feel like a failure.
Ok, thats all for now!!!
How are you guys with eating “normal/balanced” meals?
What is the meal you struggle with the most? (breakfast, lunch, dinner, snack, dessert, etc)?
Do you get nervous when you have ZERO control over your food?