I wanted to tell you guys as soon as possible!
The Great News:
Heather, my nutritionist, called me back and we spoke for thirty minutes! She was thrilled to hear from me. I told her that when I saw her two years ago it was at the force of my parents. This time, I said, it was my choice and my desire. I want her help. She let me talk and I very clumsily recapped my last year to her. I wish I was more articulate. I was getting all tongue tied and doing an awful just of explaining how I was feeling/thinking but I think I got the main idea across. And she said what I have discovered from reading all your wonderful thoughts and from the kind comments left on Morning Runner Girl– that I am not alone and this is an all too common problem among female athletes. I told her I want to be normal in my eating and eat balanced meals.
I told her I still struggle mentally with the idea of gaining weight, but I know deep down that it is what I want and need. I loved what she said when I admitted this. She said instead of the focus being on the # on the scale and the anxiety from seeing it rise (or not rise) we are only focusing on me eating well-balanced, nutrient filled meals. She said my body will adjust accordingly in terms of its weight. As long as I am feeding my body what it needs to be function healthy and happy, my performance in running and other activities will follow suite. So my “goal” right now is not to gain weight, but to gain healthy eating habits. She also wants to give me names of therapists to help change my mental views of food and my relationship with food. This makes me a little more “iffy”. Not sure why… I think the word “therapist” scares me.
I am meeting with Heather this coming Monday, June 3, at 6:15 pm! You better believe I will give you guys a full update because I will be so flippin’ excited! Also, like I have said many times, you guys are my support system and help hold me accountable 🙂 I thank each and every one of your for that!!
The Random News: My workout/dinner today:
I did a 1 hr spin class at 8:30am then ran 6.4 miles this evening. The run felt like I was working super-duper hard… and of course my pace was just “OK”. I hate it when runs are like that!!
Back to the spin class really fast– we used weights while one the bike. I had never done that before!! So during the “rest minutes” for our legs after a killer hill/sprint set, we would grab our weights, still peddling, and bust out triceps/bicep/shoulder lifting!! It was great! It definitely took my mind off of my aching legs… only to want to hurry back to a riding set due to my aching arms!! These spinning instructors are brilliant I tell ya!!
For dinner, it was just Dad and I and he insisted on going out to eat, so we hit up one of my favorites, Mackenzie River Pizza Co. For some reason I was not feeling comfortable with this, especially since we didn’t sit down to eat until 9pm, but I sucked it up and went anyways. ((9pm is my bed time guys… )) Anyways Dad was watching me like a hawk. I got a BIG bowl of white chicken chili, and Dad got a large Pizza with like 3 different kinds of meat. I ate every bit of my chile, then practically licked my bowl. It was hands down the greatest chili I have ever had. I had a big piece of his pizza too. It was a lot of food, and I did not want that slice of pizza, but I did it to keep my dad happy. And he was. He kept saying how happy he was that I agreed to go to dinner. That made me sad to hear actually, because that means that he has become used to me saying ‘no’. I have got to learn to be more comfortable with eating out…
Have you ever seen a nutritionist?
Ever seen a therapist?
How was your workout today?