I have not told a single person that I am a “blogger”.
(I use ” ” because I don’t feel at all like a real blogger, like so many of the wonderful people I follow… I am amateur and naive in the blogospher! Maybe lets say I just like to write in a blogging manner?)
Not a one. Not my sister, family, best friends, co-workers, acquaintances… I have never uttered/mumbled through a sentence with the words “I” and “write-a-blog”. Never.
I talk about all of YOU GUYS, all the time. I am constantly updating people about what “this one runner I follow” did/ate/ran/etc. I find it very easy to admit that I am addicted to reading about you guys and feel sometimes creepy with how invested I become in your lives! Sorry I’m not sorry? But when it comes to me and Morning Runner Girl…. well, I have never shared this part of my life with anyone.
Am I afraid? Is it because I don’t want them reading what I write? No. I am never writing anything mean or bad about people… I am not afraid any more to share my eating problems (I actually would love for my friends and family to be able to better understand my thoughts and struggles with it)… I would actually LOVE to involve them in my running life and help the see how much running shapes who I am….
But something is holding me back. I have found that I love how separate and drama free Morning Runner Girl is. I look forward to writing every single day. Even though I am sharing my thoughts on the internet where anyone can read, it feels private and very much “my-own”. I think I am afraid that if I start telling people about MRG, it will lose this pure bliss and “wrting-for-the-sake-of-writing” feeling.
Because of I have not shared MRG with anyone, I have never discussed my posts on Facebook, linked them to my Twitter, or shared on Instagram. I am just not ready to do that yet. I am sure one day I will be. But for now, I love that this is such a private thing for me… it truly makes me Happy!
Has anyone else had problems sharing their blogs with people that they interact with everyday in the “real-world”?